“YOU ARE DOING YOUR BEST, THANK YOU.”
October 2 2015
Green Gulch Farm
I cook. And most people do. What this means varies drastically depending on each individual. We all have various reasons why we cook. For me it's my creative expression. I have chosen to devote my life, in part, to strengthening my relationship with food and nature. Along with doing so I have opened myself to everyone, making myself completely vulnerable. It’s a very difficult thing to do and for some people, myself included, it could be so strong it may inhibit them from sharing there work. In opening up to other humans there is a feeling of not wanting to be rejected, to fit in. In this regard there is a very strong pull towards perfection. This of course is not the only reason, but a very strong one.
For me, in my recent attempt to find my own creative voice, / Shed, a project my lovely partner Leia and I have started, I have came head to head with all of these things. As scary as it all may be though, some of my most exciting and favorite works have come from some sort of failure. I have noticed that in chasing a certain perfection things become stale and stagnant. Allowing myself to continue trying new things and fail, has become a big part of my creative process as of late. Through it all though still doing the best I can, riding a fine line of perfection and Imperfection.
I recently added a gallery to my personal webpage, titled Inconsistent(Seas), which is a film project I have been wanting to do for a while now but haven’t quite figured how to do it. Recently I have had a few rolls of film that had attached themselves to the name, depicting inconsistency of what most people would call a perfect image in each one. Covered in a very overwhelming and powerful blue (the Sea). All of which I find to be perfect, only in a different way.